“I am all tied up in knots!” Have you ever used this phrase? “Knotiness” is part of the human condition, isn’t it? Emotional knots can be caused by many things – bad memories, stress, anger – and the list goes on and on. Whatever the cause of our knots, one thing is for certain – they can lead to resentment.
The word resentment comes from the Latin “re” (again) and “sentire” (to feel). When our knots remain untouched by God’s tenderness, we can tend to feel certain negative emotions again and again and again, ad infinitum. These emotions are often connected to an inability to forgive myself and/or others.
Humanly speaking, it can seem quite impossible to forgive. Our knots can become so tight that the possibility of healing – or at least relief – seem inconceivable. You’ve maybe heard the expression, “You can’t pour from an empty cup.” Our knots seem to have drained out the waters of grace in the soul.
This weekend’s Gospel reminds us that the power of forgiveness is a gift freely given by God. Before we can forgive ourselves or others, we need to know and feel our powerlessness to undo our “knotiness” and then surrender to a love much bigger than ourselves. Yes, I believe that forgiveness from a purely human perspective can oftentimes be impossible; but for God nothing is impossible!
It is part of the mystery of being human that we have to be emptied out by our inability to heal ourselves so that God can fill us up with His saving power, His grace, His loving kindness. Perhaps, as we prepare for Mass this weekend, we can take some time to identify our knots so as to open them to the only power in the universe that can undo them – Jesus Christ, the supreme undoer of knots.
Our Lady, Undoer of Knots, pray for us!